Diana Leaney López Ruano

With so many thoughts spinning round and round. How to differentiate the sky from the ground? who is here to hurt me? who can i trust? where am i going? is it love or lust? I'm not one to know scientific reasons why. Or to change the world as the days pass by. I am nothing really, just a girl with a heart. That is slowly being ripped and torn apart. I dare not breath or step out of line. For fear you would deny me as one of thine. No more what-ifs or possibilities. No more want or need of these. Because if this is what I get for being who I am. I will strip away the smile, the heels, the glam. I discover now I have no need of these. For it is only you that I need to please. So take it from me and take it now. Force me to yield. Force me to bow. I will be exactly what you want me to be. Without a thought of ever being free.

I can't believe its really happening! I'm going to Hunan, China to teach English at a University! Is this possible? Is it for real? I can't believe I'm doing it, but I AM GOING TO CHINA!!! I'm so excited, scared, nervous, ecstatic! Farthest from Salt Lake I have been is Guatemala, which is far, but its not another continent! Longest time away from home have been the weeks attending girls camp and various vacations here and there, but it doesn't compare to ten months. Ten months! Ten months away from home, away from my mom and brothers and sisters. Ten months in a different culture, a different world! Ten months eating funky foods, learning customs and traditions from a people I know hardly anything about. Ten months fending for myself physically, spiritually, and emotionally. . . . ten months! But this is it, my adventure. I'll cherish these next ten months forever. I'll learn and grow and hopefully be a good teacher as w...

I keep looking over my shoulder to tell you something, but you are not there. I walk into your room and everything is just how you left it, as if it is waiting for you to come back. I am trying and trying to be happy for you, you just had the best day of your life! but i miss you. My darling older sister, we have gone through so very much together. I enjoy telling people that they messed up in heaven, that we were supposed to be twins. Yet you were sent to this earth 18 months before I and I can't think of anyone who is closer or has been a better example to me. You are starting a new adventure in this life. The greatest one I know. Together you and Sergio will face the world, with our Heavenly Father's guidance. Tita, I miss you already. I know you are only fifteen minutes away, but it feels like we are on different continents. What if I have another nightmare? I know its childish, but you have always been there for me... in the darkest times of my life you have been there. Th...

drive drive on keep going go on when you have to leave and drive and go go on keep driving unitl you can't anymore blast the music and roll the windows don't stop keep driving go as far as you can go and when you hit the end of the road don't stop keep drivng just turn around and come back home. remember that you will always have a home.

You know? I'm not exactly sure what love is.  I am yet to discover what Frankie meant by 'L is for the way you look at me'  However, I have discovered what it surely could not be... .. .  Love is not jealousy. Love is not owning someone. Love is not hating them if they are not with you. Love is not wanting them so badly that it hurts. No. I'm sure they have nothing to do with love. i don't think love is hesitancy. i don't think love is regret. i don't think love is tears. i don't think love is or fear. Definetly not those. They don't make any sense. Oh call me a dreamer, delusional, or fantasist... but I don't want to believe that love is any one of these things. How could they be? Maybe love is not having a someone for yourself... .. . but maybe its giving of yourself to that someone... .. . Maybe? Here i am, trying to figure it out. I may find out tomorrow, or it may take me a while. Trial and error seems like a better plan than none. ...

i'd imagine that getting your heart ripped out by an angry bear would feel something like this. like a stab, not straight through your heart...but your very core. upwards all the way through each organ and vein. ohh, the pain. it weakens me. slowly draining away...hope drips down my fingers...longing sliding down my leg...all my dreams leave. yet somehow i still breath. i thought death would come swiftly. figured there was nothing left for me here. since i couldn't have you...surely, surely life would not be so cruel as to keep me here. yet somehow i'm still breathing. s o m e h o w i a m s t i l l b r e a t h i n g

Public Friends of Friends Friends Friends except Acquaintances Only Me Custom Close Friends La Region See all lists... Family CoWorkers Zhuzhou Area Hunter High School Salt Lake Community College Salt Lake Community College The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints The University of Utah Creative Woodworks, Inc. Acquaintances Go Back random IM conversation w/ my buddy Andres! ANDY: so im writing but im kinda stuck wanna help? ME: go for it- ANDY: it's close to a new day and this one was pretty much like the one before and nothing new like the week before going thru the motions going thru the days like life was eternal forgetting that everyday gets me closer to the end.. and im just waiting for you to put the spice the difference in this endless circle called life am i ready? who knows we'll see ME: we'll see where i go, what i do, when we'll be we'll just see when there is color, i n this great grey sea ANDY: i l...