Diana Leaney López Ruano

So I'm back in Utah. Seems like a pattern.  Leave for a China,  come back.  Leave for Japan,  and then come back again.  Always saying goodbye.  Not being able to make long term decisions because my life isn't permanently stationed in one place for more than a year. I am home so that I can fix things.  Fix my self physically,  mentally,  emotionally,  everything.  I'm here to make myself better so that I could serve my Father in Heaven,  so that I could serve my brothers and sisters in Japan with all of my heart,  might,  mind,  and strength. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.  The confused looks in my siblings eyes as we met in the airport.  I've discovered what it means to truly be loved.  They love me even though I felt I let them down.  I've always tried to be a hard working example for others and that is the real reason why I'm back. I'm back because I know that I'm su...

I was sixteen when I graduated High School.  I remember being a part of the Seminary Council and planning out my life after graduation.  I was going to finish my BA in the years I had before turning 21 and then go on a full time mission.  I was going to change the world.  I was going to be successful and my life was going to work out just as I had planned. WRONG. My world fell apart.  I had to work full time and go to school part time.  In the four years it took me to get my Associates Degree,  I could have received my BA and right now be working on some masters program.  I finally finished my Associates degree and I wasn't proud of it.  I felt that I had failed my sixteen-year-old self.  She knew what she wanted,  she had it all planned out and me?  Well,  I was confused to say the least. I was twenty and still had a year to go before I was old enough to serve a mission.  I enrolled at the U, ...