Breathing is difficult
I've had a chronic cough since January 2018. Sometimes my prayers go, "Heavenly Father, please help me breath. Please, I just want to breath." The first six months of this were suffocating. I couldn't speak full sentences. I was putting people on mute every few words during calls at work. I couldn't breath. I had just started to hear myself laugh and sing again, but breathing is the first step towards laughing and singing so those things stopped. In Japan I couldn't walk without pain. My knees would hurt intensely after just thirty seconds of standing so I hobbled through my mission with pain in every step. When my mission president asked me to extend my mission an extra month I looked down at my knee-braces as I tightrope-walked the curb of the sidewalk and immediately said yes. My prayers changed at that point. Instead of asking Heavenly Father to heal me I said, "If Thou knowest that I can serve Thee without legs...