Diana Leaney López Ruano

and then i saw it. *a hint of the past* a glimmer, a gleam, a glint of a something . . . * something? no, it couldn't be... because when i saw it, you were looking at me . maybe maybe -how still time seemed- but there is no way that could mean anything. nothing. no. negative captain. moving on. nothing to see here. i'll just keep on living, trying not to look again. trying not to see the nothing/something that maybe wasn't even there. maybe?

Public Friends of Friends Friends Friends except Acquaintances Only Me Custom Close Friends La Region See all lists... Family CoWorkers Zhuzhou Area Hunter High School Salt Lake Community College Salt Lake Community College The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints The University of Utah Creative Woodworks, Inc. Acquaintances Go Back We may not always understand why things don't go the way we planned We may not always understand ...why does it hurt so bad? ...why did he leave? ...why why  why me? We may not always understand ...until we see... UNTIL WE SEE GOD'S HAND.  Sometimes we don't understand why things happen the way they do.  We do not see our Heavenly fathers plan.  And so we must trust in him.  I need to trust that what I am going through is a blessing in disguise.  Someway.  Somehow.  Its all going to be okay. And for now thats enough. Trust.

this is not me. this girl that i see. she is not me. look at her- its dispicable. curled up under covers. what is she hiding from? what is she keeping in? that coward. look at her hands- they tremble. i have nothing to fear. suck it up. suck it up my dear. what is her deal? is it that hard to smile? she is not me. she could not be. her eyes are not mine. those deep hazel looks. they have not been dry since 2009. and those clothes. no way they are mine. they're black and dirty- and i like to shine. wonder who she is? poor girl. poor girl. why does she stand there? staring back at me? this girl in the mirror- who is she? ADVENTURE: finding myself amidst the grey. happiness in a drop of rain. RESULT: ... .... ..... ..... .... ... .. .