one sheep, two sheep, three sheep, four.
Can't Sleep. can't sleep. CAN'T sleep. can't sleep. can't SLEEEEEEEP. CAN'T. SLEEP.
no puedo dormiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......................
Things I usually do before bed:
- eat cereal. Or whatever I can find in china that resembles milk and cereal. usually oatmeal & yougurt.
- read from the scriptures. and that didn't make me fall asleep?! wow, I must have actually learned something.
- journal. I wrote. and I guess there wasn't anything left to write besides this blog. allllll of the thoughts running through my headdddddd.
- pray. I spoke with my Heavenly Father. He listened, yet I still can't fall asleep.
So I tried a few new things:
- like dancing around my apartment to the sound of the Latin DJ in my mind. Dancing alone isn't as fun though. bachateando by yourself is just plain sad.
- changing sleepwear
- washing my face
- drinking milk
- crunches and stretching
- unbraiding and rebraiding my hair
but its still not working.
I miss having someone here to chat with till I fall asleep. I dislike feeling alone. Seven months and I still can't get used to the solace. I miss sisters that understand my insanity and fear of the dark. I miss brothers to eat midnight snacks with. I miss family prayer and hugs and kisses before bed.
We're not meant to be alone, humans. Its not in our nature. Yeah sometimes we do need to take a minute and recharge our batteries without disturbance, but its innevitable. I wish I was some super human freak that could stand alone, but I'm tired of being strong. I'm tired of being independant. I'm tired, but I just can't fall asleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
no puedo dormiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......................
Things I usually do before bed:
- eat cereal. Or whatever I can find in china that resembles milk and cereal. usually oatmeal & yougurt.
- read from the scriptures. and that didn't make me fall asleep?! wow, I must have actually learned something.
- journal. I wrote. and I guess there wasn't anything left to write besides this blog. allllll of the thoughts running through my headdddddd.
- pray. I spoke with my Heavenly Father. He listened, yet I still can't fall asleep.
So I tried a few new things:
- like dancing around my apartment to the sound of the Latin DJ in my mind. Dancing alone isn't as fun though. bachateando by yourself is just plain sad.
- changing sleepwear
- washing my face
- drinking milk
- crunches and stretching
- unbraiding and rebraiding my hair
but its still not working.
I miss having someone here to chat with till I fall asleep. I dislike feeling alone. Seven months and I still can't get used to the solace. I miss sisters that understand my insanity and fear of the dark. I miss brothers to eat midnight snacks with. I miss family prayer and hugs and kisses before bed.
We're not meant to be alone, humans. Its not in our nature. Yeah sometimes we do need to take a minute and recharge our batteries without disturbance, but its innevitable. I wish I was some super human freak that could stand alone, but I'm tired of being strong. I'm tired of being independant. I'm tired, but I just can't fall asleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
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