Recovering from Yellow Fever.
Spending the past year in abroad has changed me. Its like everything that used to be normal, isn't normal anymore. I see things with a different perspective, different humor, different ideas and feelings. Yet some things never change. Its amazing how I see friends again and its as if no time has passed at all. We hug and things are right back to where they were. Family is still family. Friends are still friends. Home will always be home. I didn't think I would miss China this much. Some days my heart yearns for what was. I've always been that person, the one that dwells on possibilities and dreams. Its nothing to me to sit for hours on end and forget myself in my own delusions and impossible notions. Yet here I am. Wondering and thinking and wishing for something more. I guess I miss the sense of self I had in China. The independence of living alone and depending solely on myself for everything. Yet people are not supposed to be alone. I needed that