Diana Leaney López Ruano

With so many thoughts spinning round and round. How to differentiate the sky from the ground? who is here to hurt me? who can i trust? where am i going? is it love or lust? I'm not one to know scientific reasons why. Or to change the world as the days pass by. I am nothing really, just a girl with a heart. That is slowly being ripped and torn apart. I dare not breath or step out of line. For fear you would deny me as one of thine. No more what-ifs or possibilities. No more want or need of these. Because if this is what I get for being who I am. I will strip away the smile, the heels, the glam. I discover now I have no need of these. For it is only you that I need to please. So take it from me and take it now. Force me to yield. Force me to bow. I will be exactly what you want me to be. Without a thought of ever being free.

I can't believe its really happening! I'm going to Hunan, China to teach English at a University! Is this possible? Is it for real? I can't believe I'm doing it, but I AM GOING TO CHINA!!! I'm so excited, scared, nervous, ecstatic! Farthest from Salt Lake I have been is Guatemala, which is far, but its not another continent! Longest time away from home have been the weeks attending girls camp and various vacations here and there, but it doesn't compare to ten months. Ten months! Ten months away from home, away from my mom and brothers and sisters. Ten months in a different culture, a different world! Ten months eating funky foods, learning customs and traditions from a people I know hardly anything about. Ten months fending for myself physically, spiritually, and emotionally. . . . ten months! But this is it, my adventure. I'll cherish these next ten months forever. I'll learn and grow and hopefully be a good teacher as w