Diana Leaney López Ruano

Its possible to be extremely happy,  and sad at the same time. Its possible to be content,  yet know you're missing something inside . Its possible to be surrounded by people,  yet be completely alone. It is possible.  People do it every day.  Its a matter of lying to yourself.  and sayin that you're okay.

Ohh China. I have my good days and my bad.  I'm on month #4 at the moment,  a third of the way done with my time here in ZhuZhou.  It amazes me and yet I feel like I'm not where I'm supposed to be.  I should have put in my mission papers already,  it was all part of the plan.  I should be getting ready to go out and serve the Lord for a year and a half...  Yet I have seven more months to go in this city. I guess I am preparing myself in a sense.  I'm working on myself,  discovering my weaknesses and strengths,  building myself up in the good and hopefully getting rid of the bad.  It has definitively been an emotional,  mental,  and spiritual workout here.  I've learned to stand alone.  I've learned that the only way to keep strong is to do the little things.  When I pray I feel more at home then any other time.  When I read my scriptures I remember all the lessons,  all the classes,  all the moments that have helped to build up my knowledge of the gospel.  I

My school is paying for a section of the local newspaper.  Advertising for the school.  So naturally they are going to have their dancing monkeys displayed all over the newspaper.  Yes,  I do mean the five foreign teachers at my school.  I'm a dancing monkey.  Come here and I'm going to take a picture of you (of course they don't ask permission).  Come,  speak to this child in english.  Come,  right now.  Dance.  Sing.  head,  shoulders,  knees,  and toes.  Now hop around.  eyes,  ears,  mouth,  and nose.  Dance monkey,  dance dance dance dance dance. They want us to each write a piece titled "ZhuZhou In My Eyes" to be featured in the newspaper.  I'm in desperate need of ranting about ZhuZhou before I can get anything positive down on paper,  virtual or otherwise.  I'm good at BSing when it comes to research papers,  but my own opinion?  So much harder. *disclamer*  spitting out the negative on purpose.  helps me get perspective.  lots of these things