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BIG brothers:)

Public Friends of Friends Friends Friends except Acquaintances Only Me Custom Close Friends La Region See all lists... Family CoWorkers Zhuzhou Area Hunter High School Salt Lake Community College Salt Lake Community College The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints The University of Utah Creative Woodworks, Inc. Acquaintances Go Back BROTHERS.  They come in all shapes and sizes.  Some are big.  Others are bigger:) They love me even when i'm down and blue. Here big brothers-  a few words for you. Batman,  Ironman,  none can compare. I have big brothers,  the kind that care. They've got my back.  And when others fall short My brothers are there,  they don't disappoint. It was when I sat with my feet sore. That one of my brothers pulled me back on the dance floor. Or when the car wouldn't start-  I was stuck and scared. With jumper cables my brother came prepared. Sometimes its a simple text or call, With so many brothers-  no way I can fal

who is she. . . . ?

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this is not me. this girl that i see. she is not me. look at her- its dispicable. curled up under covers. what is she hiding from? what is she keeping in? that coward. look at her hands- they tremble. i have nothing to fear. suck it up. suck it up my dear. what is her deal? is it that hard to smile? she is not me. she could not be. her eyes are not mine. those deep hazel looks. they have not been dry since 2009. and those clothes. no way they are mine. they're black and dirty- and i like to shine. wonder who she is? poor girl. poor girl. why does she stand there? staring back at me? this girl in the mirror- who is she? ADVENTURE: finding myself amidst the grey. happiness in a drop of rain. RESULT: ... .... ..... ..... .... ... .. .

didn't dot my i's with hearts- did i???

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Public Friends of Friends Friends Friends except Acquaintances Only Me Custom Close Friends La Region See all lists... Family CoWorkers Zhuzhou Area Hunter High School Salt Lake Community College Salt Lake Community College The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints The University of Utah Creative Woodworks, Inc. Acquaintances Go Back No i didn't write your last name after my first.   Nor did i dot my i's with hearts. No i did not write you a love song.   Nor did i ever start.   How could i do so baby,   if you did not own my heart?  

WORTHY TO STAND

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Public Friends of Friends Friends Friends except Acquaintances Only Me Custom Close Friends La Region See all lists... Family CoWorkers Zhuzhou Area Hunter High School Salt Lake Community College Salt Lake Community College The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints The University of Utah Creative Woodworks, Inc. Acquaintances Go Back even though i love my family. i love my friends. i honestly can't wait for it all to end:) When i will walk by His side again. He will ask me questions then. Did you work hard? i did, i know. Did you love harder? i did, i do. Did you play? every single day. Did you face your trials? i did not run away. Daughter of mine, are you worthy to stand? i am. i am. Come then child, and take my hand. one day. one sweet day it will all be worth it. every tear, every heartache. i hope until then- i remain worthy to stand.

Fatherless.

I can't believe you are going to leave her. Darling Bella, so innocent and so tiny. I can't believe you will just walk away from her. From us. Look at Bryan! How can you ditch such purity? He knows not the world and all the horror it brings. He does not yet understand how satan can break up our family. Who are you? Did you ever love us? Has my whole life been a lie? The angry fights, the hurtful words. And all along you were planning, weren't you? Just biding your time until an opportunity arose to walk away- to escape. A tear drips down Denice's cheek... a steady flow of pain. A nine year old should not feel such pain. How will she be strong? She is powerless, fatherless. Leslie cowers in a corner... alone... what will she think ten years from now of the man who left her, right as her world becomes more confusing then ever? The anger dwelling in your heart spreads. It touches Steven. You pick on him and yell at him. One day, he might break.

I didn't lie...

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I didn't lie. I was in provo this morning, the Schoenfeilds basement to be exact, and I could not go to work. Adventure : calling in for a "personal day" Result : a knot in my stomach and a day away from the office. Remember when life was simple and staying home from school meant going shopping with mama? Well those days are long gone... :) We learn from personal days. We learn to breath and break away from the daily routine. Why did i take this personal stand against the company? One word. AVATAR. Do not get fooled by this adorable face that is Aang! This cartoon series introduces what every aspiring superhero has- the desire to control the supernatural naturally. haha:) Adventure : Midnight premier of The Last Airbender with my primos. Result : front and center seats to what could be the smallest theater in American Fork, truth or dare, dollar burgers hidden in pockets past usher noses, water balloons, and an all nighter after the premier to watch

Dear Santa: My Christmas Wish List

June 4, 2010 at 12:31am Public Friends of Friends Friends Friends except Acquaintances Only Me Custom Close Friends La Region See all lists... Family CoWorkers Zhuzhou Area Hunter High School Salt Lake Community College Salt Lake Community College The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints The University of Utah Creative Woodworks, Inc. Acquaintances Go Back Dear Santa, I know you're a busy guy, so i'ma give you pleeeeeeenty of time to work on my Christmas List! ((see how thoughtful i am?!??)) I would like: One yamaha 250 (you can pick the color- i don't mind!) Background music wherever i walk <3 A trip to France so i can draw with a berett on! Stilettoes! And lots of them! The desire to wake up in the morning after coming home at 4am ;D And last but not least, i would like a someone! A special someone that never lets my desk lack gerber daisies, a perfect dance partner. Someone that is not afraid of bear hugs and giving whats most impor

sometimes...

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dedicated to all you lovebirds....lol:) Sometimes you know who you want. And sometimes they want you too. Sometimes you know what you feel. And sometimes it is just real. Sometimes it’s simple to love another. And sometimes that love grows. Sometimes, just sometimes One heart becomes two.