Forgive Me.

Forgive me and my yearning heart.

Forgive me and my burning emptiness.  

Forgive me for having this song on repeat

Once, Falling Slowly

since I arrived at work today at noon.  

Let me play it one more time.  

Forgive me for I'm emotionally unstable today

and may just flirt with a stranger shamelessly.  

In order to show that I am independent and need no one.  

That I am strong.  That I am happy.  

That we were nothing.  

That I do not miss you.  

Forgive me,  love,  because I miss you more today

than any day before.  

I miss your hat,  your accent,  your smell.  

I wish you were here as I spin around my room.  

In that careless way you loved to watch.  

Shining that glow of letting go

and then taking your hand to pull me back to earth.  

I wish you were here as I don my stilettos

because I can't reach the sky without a few extra inches.
I wish I could reach out to you.  

I wish you could read the signs in the stars 

that I painted just for you.  

WHY WE ARE NOT TOGETHER I DO NOT KNOW.  

Actually,  I do.  

It's because mentally you're teaching and I am too,  

but physically we're on different continents.  

Emotionally I am the opposite charge pulling,  pulling,
but your spirit is on the other side of the magnetic pole.  

I miss you.  

Oh,  I miss you.