WORTHY TO STAND

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even though i love my family.
i love my friends.
i honestly can't wait for it all to end:)


When i will walk by His side again.
He will ask me questions then.

Did you work hard?
i did, i know.

Did you love harder?
i did, i do.

Did you play?
every single day.

Did you face your trials?
i did not run away.

Daughter of mine, are you worthy to stand?
i am. i am.

Come then child, and take my hand.



one day.
one sweet day it will all be worth it.
every tear, every heartache.

i hope until then- i remain worthy to stand.

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